Author Archives: lagail41

I really don’t know how to describe the ups and downs of this journey of Alzheimer’s with my mother. I know I wrote a couple of weeks ago that I knew the end was coming. And it definitely looked that way; however, now she seems to be at another “normal.” All of her meals areContinue reading “A new “normal?””

Angela came by this week for Moms monthly visit. I shared with her about her medication and how it was too strong and we talked about hospice. Since Mom appears to being doing “better” I don’t think I need it now. The truth is I know I will need help if her transitioning is longContinue reading “3 months”

Last week Momma was extremely sluggish. She couldn’t eat or drink. I’d put her sippy cup in her mouth and she wouldn’t or couldn’t drink it. Her lips wouldn’t wrap around the sippy portion and the liquid just ran down her mouth. Eating was the same way. I confided in two of my cousins. IContinue reading “REALLY?!!Shut UP”

Yesterday I woke up and all I wanted to do was cry. The truth, is for the last couple of months my emotions have been just underneath the surface. For anyone interacting with me they see a funny, active women who is pursuing her dreams. Underneath I have deep sorrow and sadness. In watching theContinue reading “Emotionally spent”

Happy New Year! The dawning of yet another new year. My reflections take me back to 2019 when my mother lost her ability to move. Then I knew the Lord would be calling His beloved daughter home. But here we are two years later and she is still here with me. As one would expectContinue reading “2021”

The last time I blogged I was concerned. Concerned that momma had slowed down with eating. I had to make breakfast smoothies and really it was a struggle to get her to eat. Now, even though there has been “some” slowing down she’s seemed to have ”bounced back” so to speak. She eats her puree’dContinue reading “It’s all good”

By now it should be no surprise that as my mother’s disease advances it means she’s getting closer to death. It is a painful process to watch. She doesn’t eat as much, half of her Moms puréed meals. Deborah gives her breakfast and lunch for dinner I give her an Boost. Ensure seems to giverContinue reading “Watching the process, It ain’t easy”

Ok, so after my breakdown last weekend I decided to see how I could give Momma the nutrition that she needs and make it easier for her to digest while making It easier for me to give It her. Of course, I am sure those of you out There already knew about breakfast smoothies andContinue reading “Breakfast smoothies save the mornings”

Today, all I could do was literally scream. I screamed loud and long! Momma slowing down, she is loosing her will to eat. She pockets the food in her cheeks and just holds it. Now this presents two challenges: 1. She isn’t really eating so no nourishment and 2. If she’s holding it then fallsContinue reading “Overwhelmed by frustration”

The last week was hard, I was really in a slump. Not sure if it’s because I’m (pretty sure) peri menopausal but I just really had no motivation. I’d wake up and go through the motions of the day. I’d write, I’d walk and pray, I participated in my zoom Bible study but in theContinue reading “Overcoming”