3 months

Angela came by this week for Moms monthly visit. I shared with her about her medication and how it was too strong and we talked about hospice. Since Mom appears to being doing “better” I don’t think I need it now. The truth is I know I will need help if her transitioning is long and drawn out. Angela gives Momma three months, I was thinking the summer but I guess what is a couple of months difference.

My prayer is that one day I wake up go into her room to start the day to discover that the Lord has called her home. That is what I would like, watching the process of her not being able to eat or drink or her bodily functions cease is a little too much for me.

Yesterday she urinated once. This morning, as I laid in my bed, I wondered whether I would find a full diaper with both a bowel movement and urine or just a little bowel movement like yesterday. I prayed that I would have a heavy diaper to change. I couldn’t hear her grinding her teeth but I hear her that she was up. I went into her room and gave her the thyroid medication.

As I washed her faced and brushed her teeth I chatted with her reminding her of my singing; last Thursday I sang hymns and prayed with her. Everyone in my family, on both sides, can sing…except me…..But I can make a joyful noise:-) Then it was time to change the diaper…and thanks be to God it was FULL of both a BM and urine!

It’s the small things now that give me the greatest joy!

Glory to God!