By now it should be no surprise that as my mother’s disease advances it means she’s getting closer to death. It is a painful process to watch. She doesn’t eat as much, half of her Moms puréed meals. Deborah gives her breakfast and lunch for dinner I give her an Boost. Ensure seems to giver her the runs! I fortify it with half of a banana. During the weekends I make her breakfast shake ,which she seems to like ,then she gets Moms meal and the shake for dinner.
Deborah can get her to eat cucumbers and croutons form her salad but she is slowing down. Her Eyes are closed most times and she’s not that interactive as she has been. It is so hard to watch…. I have my good days and not so good days. I go to God and ask Him for His strength to continue the process, which He does. I’m comforted knowing that my mother isn’t in any pain and that she is here with me.
During Angel’a visit this month she stated that once Momma really stops eating, because the brain isn’t sending the instructions to the body to eat and swallow, we can insert a feeding tube. Immediately I told her that would not be an option I’d pursue. Once that times comes I will allow the natural process take it course and say goodbye.
Caregiving.....Screaming is allowed! 